and maybe you don’t have to?
i currently have fleetwood mac on perma-peat and someone just told me this version reminded them so much of me they couldn’t stand it.
if only i could sing like her.
his loss, hair toss!
my best friend just called me.
expecting to need to lift me up.
my chipper voice alarmed her.
honey, don’t you know me by now?
if not him, someone better.
ex oh.
to be with you.
you know your friendships are special when a 6 hour car ride goes by in what feels like 30 minutes.
(give or take 5.5 hours)
ex oh to my bestie.
our car concert was a highlight of my weekend. and maybe my year.
‘i’m the one who wants to be with you. deep inside i hope you feel it too.’
all gas, no brakes!
i’ve been guilty of putting the pedal to the metal a little more often than i should.
for someone who despises running, i often find myself charging forward and barreling into situations – the irony isn’t lost on me.
my boots have lead bottoms. and slowing down isn’t nearly as exciting as diving in.
head first.
one of my besties recently told me i was unpredictable. and i was shocked, but the truth is: i sorta am.
change is exciting. and life is full of possibilities.
it may not be wise mind, but it’s 100% me. and i’m realizing that’s a lot more fun.
and fun makes me happy.
it ain’t me, babe.
i have a theory. regarding kitchen appliances and love. namely ovens and stovetops.
i affectionally refer to it as my back burner theory.
if you know me at all, you know i’m a big big fan of honesty. i’m not into wasting other people’s time. or my own.
which is why this back burner thing is slightly disturbing to me.
example, i met a boy. i really liked him. thought he was interesting, attractive, could match wits. i was interested. but then he asked me one day ‘this girl likes me, how do i blow her off?’
cue record scratching sound. i said ‘why not try honesty? something along the lines of: i’m just not feeling a romantic connection.’ when i’m not feeling it, i let it be known. i’m all about cutting people loose when i need to.
he thought that was mean. his solution was to make up an excuse and keep stringing her along. (i.e. put her on the back burner.) i think the truth is kinder. i’d rather tell someone i’m not feeling it and let them move on. allow them to find someone who feels the same way they do. when i explained this to the boy and called him out the back burner thing, he said ‘i have a big stove top’. i immediately became uninterested. anyone that needs to keep people around for reassurance that badly is not right for me.
my stove top is small and only has room for front burners.
as an aside, regarding the photo for this post: i waited over 6 years for this lovely mixer. i asked for it for every birthday/christmas/valentine’s day/fourth of july/monday/tuesday/wednesday/thursday/friday/saturday/sunday. finally, for my 30th birthday, my bestie gifted it to me. it’s everything i dreamed of. and more. just like her. and whether there is a boy in my life or not, she’ll always be a front burner.
sdinsd 