new year. old me.

it’s a new year. and the old me is back. she’s a little wiser, much sassier, and happier than ever.

this year i resolve to be the best version of me that i can be. not sure who that is yet, but i’m excited to figure it out.

and to take advantage of opportunities. because lately i’ve been presented with so many.

2011 is already an exciting year. 2010 closed a lot of wrong doors and i’m thrilled to see the right ones opening.

and since i either do things with my entire heart or not at all, i’m ‘moving forward using all my breath’…because ‘the future’s open wiiiiiiide!’

(ironical that this song popped up as i was finishing this post? i think not. there are no coincidences.)

the best gift of all.

two years ago, i got the most tragic news. my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.

it changed my whole world.

for an entire year, i was numb. i didn’t cry. i didn’t feel. i didn’t realize i had completely shut down.

it wasn’t until i met a dear, sweet boy who had experienced love, loss, and lived to tell that i even realized how far removed i was.

he broke my thumb. and broke my heart. wide. open.

he’s no longer in my life, but i think of him every single day. and i’m thankful that even though we didn’t have the ending we once dreamed of, he renewed my hope in love and partnerships. we may not talk. we may not text. but he’ll forever remain in my heart as one of my fondest memories and i wish him all the love and happiness in the world.

merry xxxmas to you. wherever you are.

and thank you. for being my human heater, melting the ice, and breaking down all my walls.

thankful.

that i have the best friends a girl could dream of.

that i get to see all my favorite people in the same month as my birthday.

that 30 is far better (dare i say, amazing?!) than i had ever imagined.

and that it’s cold enough to wear boots daily.