two years ago, i got the most tragic news. my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.

it changed my whole world.

for an entire year, i was numb. i didn’t cry. i didn’t feel. i didn’t realize i had completely shut down.

it wasn’t until i met a dear, sweet boy who had experienced love, loss, and lived to tell that i even realized how far removed i was.

he broke my thumb. and broke my heart. wide. open.

he’s no longer in my life, but i think of him every single day. and i’m thankful that even though we didn’t have the ending we once dreamed of, he renewed my hope in love and partnerships. we may not talk. we may not text. but he’ll forever remain in my heart as one of my fondest memories and i wish him all the love and happiness in the world.

merry xxxmas to you. wherever you are.

and thank you. for being my human heater, melting the ice, and breaking down all my walls.