it’s like a dream.

i’ve always had very vivid dreams…which was interesting when i was a (bratty, obnoxious) child because they would often result in fear-paralyzing nightmares that left me screaming and subsequently, cuddled up in my parent’s bed.

or wide awake in the early morning wondering how i went from being a fairy princess back to my regular life…as a princess in my own imagination.

i digress (and it isn’t pretty)…

several months ago, i had a dream about a good friend. i dreamt her boyfriend proposed to her. oddly enough, the next night he did. i hadn’t spent any time with him prior to that so the dream was as random as they come…

it’s been a common theme in my life: dreams.

approximately 6 months ago i had a dream about a guy. i don’t know who he was, but i know how i felt with him next to me. i woke up and wrote down my dream in detail (which i would typically share…but i’m holding back on this, some things are sacred). i don’t know who the guy was since he had no face, but i knew i loved him. and i knew that i wanted to stay in that moment with him forever.

i recently met someone (that feels weird/exciting to share). and soon after i had that same dream again. this time the guy had a face: his.

…which is unnerving to say the least. but simultaneously, oddly comforting.

if my past dreams are any indication, then great things are in store.

and are already happening.

i can honestly say i’m happier than i’ve ever been. beyond happy. so happy i need a new word for ‘happy.’

and excited that i’m fortunate enough to be living my dream.

to boot.

engaging.

i went to an engagement party recently & for the first time in a long time i was struck by wonder at how perfect this particular couple is for each other. it’s rare to find someone you can tolerate on a regular basis, but seeing what these two share was beyond inspiring…i feel special and honored to be a part of their circle in this exciting time.

they are without a doubt, two of the most hilarious people i’ve ever been around. and they completely balance that out with their unwavering loyalty & completely solid foundation. it’s endearing.

i am positive they’ll keep each other on their toes & laughing throughout the years. and i’m thrilled that two special people have found an equally special partner.

i am well aware i’m getting waaaay ahead of myself, but i’m already completely obsessed with their unborn children.

a big heartfelt congrats to my lovely friend.

first things first though, convincing her it’s necessary to have me in a tutu pirouetting down the aisle at her wedding…

smarts are sexy.

as a self-proclaimed book nerd i am unable to date a guy who is unable to match wits or carry on a stimulating conversation.

even if a guy is drop-dead gorgeous ~ if he is unable to engage his brain, i’m immediately uninterested.

some girls are into cars, looks, money, or power, but for me ~ it’s alllll about the brains, baby.

since i started dating boys, i’ve had a vision of a guy that i could sit up with late at night and enjoy scintillating conversations. and that’s my #1 fantasy with my mr. forever. sure, i imagine exotic travels, a marriage, and maybe some littles…but none of those could happen if he wasn’t brainy. and when a boy can string together a sentence ~ i melt.

i was with a group of girls the other night and one of them was describing a male friend, as different girls floated in and out of the conversation they all asked the same thing ‘is he hot?’ whereas i asked ‘is he smart?’ ~ they all looked at me like i had 3 heads.

can you imagine how smart i’d be then?!

hump day.

i was recently driving a rental car and pulled up next to my boy bestie. i was staring at him & smiling, but not waving. i knew he didn’t recognize me yet since i was in a random car. i watched him go into full flirt mode as he smiled at me and leaned back to puff out his manly chest then i watched the wave of recognition wash over him. it was a special moment to see him snap out of his ‘laying it on thick’ eyes and yell ‘oh shit!’

i love that he thought there’d be some girl trying to flirt on him prior to 9am. on a weekday.

he’s so cute.