while on vacation with my best friend and her husband this week, she insisted that i talk to the guy that was singing along with the live band we were watching.
bestie: shirin! come talk to this guy, he’s got pipes.
me: (to her husband) yeah, but he doesn’t have looks.
bestie: he’s such a great singer!
me: (to her husband) will you tell your wife i’m trying to start a family, not a band.
i don’t know how i got to be this funny.
it takes a lot to win me over. and i’ve been crushing. hard!
i’m easy to be with, but hard to get. i can fall in love with a boy or i can fall in love with a song, but it isn’t a person or tune i’m thinking of tonight: it’s a place.
anyone who knows me knows my heart belongs to san diego, but recently i’m finding other cities very alluring…
my two recent trips to the city by the bay have reaffirmed my love for san francisco. the city that almost had me for college. initially, i thought it was just infatuation. i’m often rash & impulsive, but this has been a long time coming. i think it may be time to explore my feelings. i’ve bounced around the idea of a power move for long enough. it’s time to take that leap. and say yes to life.
the east coast feel of this west coast city has captured my heart & for the first time in a long time, i had trouble saying goodbye.
i’m headed home, but it feels like i left my heart in san francisco. as the wheels of the plane touch the ground, i’m typically overcome with a sense of calm. san diego has always felt right. this time it feels different. it feels like i’m meant to be someplace else.
sdinsf doesn’t have the same ring to it, but i have to follow my heart. and i trust that the universe will take care of the rest.
great advice given to me by someone who ‘gets it.’
a motto he lives by and i admire.
to be completely candid (i always am), i’m so great at doing this when i’m single, but have trouble reconciling my committed self with my spontaneous and unpredictable single lady status.
i suppose that’s natural… it’s a challenge to maintain a relationship if you’re constantly running around all over the place. or is it?
time will tell.
but until i find a boy whose company i enjoy as much of that of my bestie, i’ll be maintaining my single lady status.
~ looking forward to spending time with one of my favorites. sdinsf.
SDinSF <— click to watch
i turned 29 and my favorite people were there to celebrate with me. and then make a movie of it. (thanks audie!)
i’m suffering from massive blogger’s block. at this point, i have seven half-written blogs. i can’t bring myself to finish them. i’m not sure what my malfunction is…if i had to hazard a guess, i’d say it’s a bad case of the crazies mixed with a little wanderlust.
i battle the crazy on a daily (read: minute by minute) basis.
the fact is, i’m completely neurotic, often anxious, and get caught up in these insane hypotheticals that i invent in my own head. i don’t know why i’m sharing this. i don’t know why i share most of the things i do…especially since i’m not really a fan of sharing. ask my mom. (about my inability to share, not about what a head case i am)
don’t get me wrong. i mean, i think i’m fabulous, but i recognize that even in all my amazing-ness – there is room for improvement. let’s not get too deep here though, that’s a different topic for another day. i just spent the better part of the morning trapped in my head over-analyzing something that i just need to let go.
apparently, ‘letting go’ for me somehow translates to ‘i need a vacation’ (just go with it). and so i’m sitting here…thinking/plotting/planning where i’d like to go. and then i realize: it doesn’t matter where you go, honey. you gotta take all your crazy with you.
so, for now. i’m staying put. in my head.
watch out, world. (read: poor, sweet boyfriend who has to put up with me)
sdinsd 